Soliloquy

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The void I feel inside 

Hollow and shady

Killing me inside out

I discern

 Will make no sense

 To any

 Thus words must kept aside

 But will I ever be free

 From intenseness

 The ill demeanor 

 I have came across

 The betrayel, abandonment

  tears shedding reminiscences 

  Are haunting

  Making me begrime

  As if wanting to cremate 

  And then this crawling loneliness

  Like fire slowly catches 

  And shackle 

  It has fasten me

  Making the resistance impossible

  Demands no further tug

  Whilst the creeping pain that gnaws 

  And fumbles

  Has shaken my core

  Also gave the strength to endeavor

  All the pinnacle, Fence, and

  Barriers within and out

  Understood that

  Being lonely will get you out

  From distorted truth

  Because then and only then

   you'll be able to distinguish

   Faces and emotions

   Desires and needs

   What would be more

   Ravishing then to know oneself

   For those who engender

   Becomes free 

   Of expectations, approbations

   All the unnecessary trauma

   But before all that 

   I must embrace the pain

   And have my lessons learned

   

   ......🖋️ Farzana Shah

   

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